hey everyone..tomorrow is going to be nine weeks! wow..i get my next shot on saturday or sunday..and i'm going to be giving it to myself.. i can't wait and am super excited for it! another huge change i've noticed is my heartburn..holy shit..i eat cheese and get heartburn..it doesn't go away and creeps up into my throat..blah! it sucks..i've been eating tums like candy..i'm thinking about getting some zantac or something to help..other than that things are going really well at work..my co workers that were being dicks are now changing thier pronouns and getting along with me really really well..i was even invited to one of thier parties this weekend which i'm looking very much forward to..its like a complete change around and it makes me feel great..anyways..i better run..need to shower..post soon..until then..later....

hey everyone..just thought i'd sit down for a moment while i have a chance..been super busy lately...my voice has dropped again which i'm stoked about..and when i look up and swallow you can see a small but there adam's apple forming..holy shit..and i have tons of hair coming in all over my face..it isn't quite dark yet..but its really coming and itchy fucking itchy at that..now i know why guys are constantly scratching their faces..because it fucking itches! my shoulders are definetley dropping way out as well..and my face is thinning out..i'm starting to look more and more like a guy..finally my haven that i've wanted my entire life..i'm feeling pretty good today..it'll be a good week..i'm really wanting to focus myself on lucy right now and figure out what we're doing..things will come together..she's my rock..i dont understand why im having such a hard time focusing on us when she's been the only one to truly support me..i'm figuring things out..i just want to expierence manhood..come and go as i please kind of thing..thinking just of me and with the wrong head..haha..i'm like a 13 year old virgin..i just want to have fun..but i need to step back and realize that what i have at home is great and perfect..i dont want to give it up for the world..its a rare gem i've found and i'm not gonna let it loose..anyways..ramble ramble ramble..i'll post soon..until then..later...

NE 24 (9-0) VS IND 20 (7-1) Sweeeeeetnesssssss!!!!!!!!

hey everyone..another blog..been kind of slowing down lately on the blogs..i apologize..i've had one hell of a week..i haven't slept..ate..or done much of anything..i've been feeling blah about some things..i'm a bit confused in my own world right now..i'm spending a few days away from home just trying to figure out exactly whats going on with me..i seen my therapist today..she thinks its a great idea to take some time away..she recommened anti depressants..which is extremely difficult for me to hear basically because i've always been the type of person to want to face reality as it comes take and deal with it..i've told myself i'd never ever take a drug to fix my problems in life..but i've been so depressed and have tons of anxiety up and down it might be a good idea..i'll wait awhile..my doc changed my shot cycle to every ten days instead of every two weeks..i'm gonna see if that maybe helps balance some things out..if not then i'll think about it..but just not right now..i dont want to hurt anyone including myself..but i just feel like i'm on the path of destruction...i'm afraid i'm going to destroy my entire life in the process of figuring out who i am..blah..anyways..its late i'm tired..i'm gonna try and get some sleep..i'll post soon..until then...later...

hey everyone..have the day off today..gonna do some fishing..clear my mind..but there is a week 8 pic in the gallery..check it out..lemme know if i'm looking any different! post soon..until then..later...