hey everyone!!! today is 7 weeks on t! which means next week will be 2 months..holy shit! its hard for me to believe yet..anyways..not really any other changes have come about..90 percent of my changes only i can notice..but i'm happy with only noticing the changes..however the hair on my upper lip has turned really dark theres even a shadow along my lip..which is exciting!! only means its gonna steadily come in darker and darker..yay for me! i've posted a new pic in my gallery if you want to check it out! not alot to say this go around..will post again..until then..later...

hey everyone..another post for another day..today was going great then state walked in the building for our annual inspection..thats always a pain in the ass and calls for a very long week..my voice dropped again last night..that's three times..i heard it as soon as it happened...i'm excited and can't wait for it to become even deeper..things at work are going fine..so is the non smoking ordeal except i'm still trying to figure out what to do with my two 15 minutes breaks at work..lol..i'm use to smoking..now i just kind of sit there being a dreamer..nothing to exciting..tomorrow is 7 weeks and i can't get over that..i remember when starting hormones was a figment of my imagination and i thought it'd never happen..and here i am weeks into it and i've never felt happier..my grandma was asking me the other night what the health factors and risks are with testosterone..well anything that is high risk in men more so than women is going to affect me..since i'll have t in me my risk for heart attack or high cholestrol goes up..but nothing to serious that i can't control..besides like i told her..i'd rather be alive for 30 years on testosterone than 80 years not..she said whatever makes you happy makes us happy..they make my world go round! anyways..better run..post soon..until then..later..

hey everyone..today has been an okay day..i'm just sorda ready to move on to another job..and i can't right now because of health insurance reasons and it pisses me off..my doc's asst came into my work today and kept calling me an it and when i'd correct her she said we'll you're in between you still have hooters dont ya..and a co worker chimed in "why can't we just call him he..that's what he wants..besides we call them man boobs anyways" so that made my day but it still sucked and its very frustrating for everyone to constantly slip up thier pronouns or not even try..GRRR..i just need a new job..where they only know me by he..blah fucking blah..not a good day..its been 3 days without a smoke and thats awesome and its really not hard at all..its just been an overall crappy day..just to vent..post soon..until then..later...

hey everyone..thought i'd post..i have a very busy weekend..today is nearly over but not quite yet..my lil bro is 18 today..its a big day..so i set up a bday surprise party for him..decorated the house totally all out..had cake and pizza..he was 2 hours late..knowing he was suppose to be there..then stayed for 10 mins and left..i was irritated but i know..he's 18 but he didn't even tell anyone he was leaving..so that irked me some..i'll get over it..just frustrating..tonite we're going over to a buddie's house to watch the fights..i really wanna watch the lsu vs auburn game..but maybe i can switch back and forth..i've also decided to quit smoking..it was something that i've been doing for a few years now and it sucks being wheezy in the morning and unable to breathe when i'm working out..so i've decided its just time for me to quit smoking..my last cigarette was yesterday at 1230pm after lunch..i've been doing pretty good..its now 6 pm today..past hte first day and some..its not really the nicotine that i'm having a hard time ridding of its the habit of going and smoking when i'm bored..or driving..just something to do..having to occupy myself with other things..its really hard dont get me wrong..but its something i need to do..so all is well in a hard days work! well wish me luck..post soon..until then..later..

hey everyone..another post..well my voice has dropped again! yay! its getting deeper and deeper and i'm loving it! lucy is learning how to give me my injections...i dont have the confindence up yet enough to do it myself..i've always been intimidated by needles and its a big needle..so in november she'll start giving me my shots..until i get the courage to do so..i have 5 cigarettes left and i'm gonna quit smoking..i can't breathe when i'm lifting weights and it slows me down..so i'm gonna quit cold turkey..hope i can wish me luck..also i was thinking..i dont know if y'all have heard of the move Boys Dont Cry starring Hilary Swank but its a great movie and its a true story about a FTM in falls city nebraska which is less than 2 hours from where i am..it'll bring tears to your eyes..but its a great movie..i'm gonna watch again tonite! like i haven't seen it 8 million times..anyways..better run lucy will be home soon! post again..until then..later..