hey everyone..another day for another post..i was driving home last night from manhattan which is round 45 minutes away..and i started thinking about different aspects of my transition..i went to the country stampede which is a 4 day event of different country performers..not my first choice of music but there were a few i wanted to see and we got free tickets so why not..anyways..im starting to not think about my transition as often as i use to..it use to totally consume my thoughts and now i'm just starting to fall into my new life..but things take me off guard still..sometimes when i start to talk my deep voice throws me off..inside my head when i think to myself..my voice is pre t...but then i talk and its so very deep and people tell me all the time how deep it is and that they dont reconize my voice...its a great feeling but its funny to see my own reaction with myself..i get called sir all the time..there isn't any moment i dont pass anymore..not one..its perfect..but at the same time its all so new still..when people automatically check male on paperwork..or in conversation i'm he..but it can still throw me off guard..sometimes it makes me smile really big..other times its just natural..and then theres the moments when it throws me off guard..i rarely slip with myself anymore..i never call myself a she even if i'm telling stories from when i was a she..but yet i'm still finding myself adjusting to everything..just falling into the steps of a man is adjustment..the difference between genders are huge..and everything about both genders are very defined..example..at the stampede yesterday people were walking around giving 8 minute surverys..so i was stopped..it was a survery about toyota trucks..ok perfect..there was a section with several different words that defined the toyota tundra to you as a person..there were words like..strength..durable..stylish..personable..tough..ruggid..small..long lasting..colorful..well i automatically picked out the words like sternght..durable..tough..ruggied..and long lasting..i didn't even think about it..i just picked them..they stood out when it came to the definition of a truck..the gal surveying me said "those are manly words"..and it took me off guard..they were..and i picked them..because i'm a manly man..lol..because everything is adjusting in my brain...my brain has always been the same but it makes a huge difference when you're body matches what your brain is thinking..my thoughts seem to flow more easily as does my body actions..im getting there..it just takes time..just a curious thought i wanted to share with y'all..i'm gonna post another pic i'll be on t for 10 months july 6th..but i'm posting it today..post soon..until then..later...